I never committed. Still haven't.

For years, I switched task managers every few weeks.

New app. Move everything over. A few weeks later, the itch again.

It looked like getting organized. It was avoidance. I didn’t want to commit to one thing, so I kept sampling instead.

I felt guilty about it the whole time.

What I didn’t see back then: every time I refused to pick, I touched something new. I learned how one more piece worked and how it connected to the others. Nobody gave me credit for any of it, including me.

Now I build agents across every part of a business. I never set out to learn that. Recently I merged 551 PRs in ten days, across a bunch of projects. When T3 Code showed up, it took me about an hour to feel at home.

That’s the years of switching, finally paying out.

Hawthorne had a rule for an unwasted life: “to do nothing against one’s genius.”

For a long time I thought my wandering broke that rule. I’m less sure now.

I wouldn’t tell anyone to avoid on purpose. But if you already spent years wandering, you might be grading yourself on the wrong test.

I still haven’t committed to one thing. That’s fine.

The guilt was the only wasted part.

~ aq